Dissappointment

okay so went to school today coz someone wanted to get his results so badly..and so i went..bro sent me to school so reached school no one was in class..slept in fucking class..nizam arrived and kent too..then..........disturb mr.sara got exams marks and got back home..tgan,kent,siang,sanjiv nizam chilled for a bit.....


dad asked for my results and showed him my marks for science coz thats the only wan i got witih both the paper i ppassed! and hes like this is just like barely pass and i klept wuite i can see that hes dissappointed and i cant do fuck bout it..so fucking pissed..well i fucking tried like my best but hen istill cant score A coz im not a genius like some people in myclass the way i looked at the results i was kinda lucky to get it coz like frist time science paper i manage to answer all the questions..then after dinner my mom was like im dissappointed with you..fuck i keep on getting this..

i shud start studying well i actually i did already but i dont know why my fucking marks always stays like dat..its like the harder i try to lower i get and when i dont do fucking shit on the paper i get fucking good marks well i mean better marksla this is fucking stupid!!might aswell not study coz it doesnt work..it doesnt fucking work...iu cant keep on dissappointing my parents..they've done so much to me..and if i dont score for SPM which is the real shit..i just dont know how to live with myself..

im finding a solution for all of this its not the fiirst fgucking time i dissappointed my parents..and i dont want them to even have the tought of giving up on me and i know they wont or even have the tought that im a failure coz im not..ive been using the excuse of "well i tried" or "i dont know why" or saying im sorry without knowing how to resolve the problem or "i promise i wont do it again"..i guess being 16 turning 17 is a blast for most ppl and it is for me too but there is ups and downs no doubt..i think this is quite a good time no i mean i gotta start being mature and take responsabilities on my actions and not just act like i know what im doing all the time and act like im always right or i dont need advices...i gotta fucking start giving back something to my parents after they put their trust and everything on my but i take it for granted and just blow it off..this is fucked up..seriously fucked up..coz i get whatever i want..and theydont ask anything back but its like a unspoken agreement or unwritten deal between each child with their parents where they must fucking repay them atleast with something they can be proud of their child..well most ppl just fucked it up..im nearly there and i dont want too..i guess i aint that matured yet as i think iam coz i still dont wanna take any responsabillities on my actions..still dont fucking think before i do something and sure dont think of the future..talk is fucking cheap but doing it is something else..well as i sed earlier im serious this time..ill fucking find myself back on the ground and repay mymy loved ones esp my mom and dad for everything..dissapointed them too fucking much..

Tagged! Your It!

Tagged again..

Do you have any friends of the Opposite Sex : yeah of course!

Are you in a Relationship: No...

Who was the Last person you dated: Psycho Ex

What is the best quality: Cant remember

Have you ever been cheated on: Once

Have you ever cheated on someone: Twice

When was your First serious relationship: Form 3

Who with: sorry -----

Have you ever had Friends with Benefits: yeah

What makes the opposite sex attractive: 1.ass,2.face,3.voice

Do you have a crush: comes and go

Do you dream about your crush: Nope

Is there someone you want to kiss: Yeah

Have you ever kept a crush super secret: yea but ppl will find out coz i start
acting stupid when the crush is near

Have you ever done something you regret:YES!

Have you ever hurt someone: Yes..but its always the funny type

Has someone ever hurt you: Sadly yeah

Do you care about money:depends but to pick people not at all

Were you ever with someone completely opposite of you: yeah hehe

Do you miss someone: yes

Whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: face

Have you ever had a crush on someone that was in a relationship: yeah

Have you ever kissed a stranger: nopes

What would be your perfect date: Booze,Sex and Football haha kidding..you'll find out when your on it with me ;)

Do you prefer holding hands or making out: Both

Whats the best physical attribute: im a guy so ill go with ass and boobies

Lost someone: yeah

How do you feel about Long distance relationships: its stupid

Do you want them to be smart: just not super stupid will do

Last one of the opposite sex you talked to: cant remember

How many people have you dated since January: None (on purposela)

Do you care if they share your religion: why should i?

Have you ever said I love you and meant it: yeah

Do you believe in love at first sight: i think its stupid coz its based on looks

Do you think internet relationships can really work: another stupid one

When was the last time you slow danced: haha kim's party for 3 seconds

Does anyone have a crush on you: if i knew then it wouldnt be a crush now would it

Do you want to get married: depends

Have you ever stalked someone: nooooo

Has someone ever stalked you: yeap haha

Have you ever done the love calculator: whats dat?

Would you ever kiss someone in front of your parents:eeeyer no

Have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex:nope

Have you ever slept in the same bed as the opposite sex:yeah duuh

Have you ever been naked with the opposite sex: haha yeah

Have you ever had sex:--

Do you bite when you kiss:do you want me to?hahaha i dont know i dont check

Would you date someone from another state:no

Would you be with someone with glasses: depends how she loks with it

Have you kissed someone in a restaurant: yeah

Do you care if they drink: nope

Smoke: nope

Have you ever been called a tease: nope

Have you ever cried over someone who you were just "talking" with: no

Have you ever liked someone from a different country: yeah

Would you play with their hair: so far havent yet

Would you do anything for the person you like: i think

Do you miss a past relationship: no

Whats really important to have in a relationship: booze,sex and football haha

Do you like getting massages: yea i do i do i do uuuu

Do you like to cuddle:is it worth it?

I TAG EVERYONE WHO KNOWS ME!

nizam sorry weyh dunno why can put more in will do your thing tomorrow haha